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Explosions of the heart The horizon is coming near, the birds are flying away from the whispering curses from the killers who paint the roads orange with flame and blood; and the absence of belief nauseates us all, the burning smell of our skin on a stove where dreams are cooked for the dinner table of the devil... if there is an escape then none of us know about it. And on top of it all you say that the journey to understand has just started, that the wars we fight have an end; and even more that I am going to plunge head first into an appreciative water pool of words and clasps. The glow from the base of my spine is separating the world into two and I don't care if it splits me into two, three or more. Humming at the lips of my neck, naked flesh at the precipice of my finger and I believe, oh yes I believe, my soul has no place to rest. So my friends, isn't it enough that the man who is on the street asking for a kind donation for a dose of crack, or a bowl of soup, is the reincarnation of all those souls dead before his time; this is our legacy, our punishment for the deeds of pain, death and loss of grip on the rope born from the wombs of our mothers. You say, you want a blue sky, you say you want a grass green with the stories of your children, and you say you want me and my love, but I say, I am going to die right in front of you for reasons I do not know, for reasons that will never end echoing in your ears. By Kerem Durdag tomorrow will come when you look down below from the window seat 26A, from behind two glass pressurized panes, you are thinking the world is so big that you will never see it all and all of it will never know you. then ten million other things rush into you with a bullet impact of blue and blue and you find you are telling yourself tomorrow, there will be a tomorrow without the demons. By Kerem Durdag somebody bombed Agha's Supermarket in Karachi there is no hell just the fires that burn after the bomb explodes and leaves all the memories in pieces over the asphalt in the parking lot under the gaze of the eyes of the shoppers and me there is really no one responsible is there all of us did it bombed it to pieces together with all the memories of my life of your life because we hate remember the word hate hated each other but and I both know we will continue on in other aisles under different gazes because bombs are like ejaculations of sperm born from the titillation of rape it is all about power and penetration By Kerem Durdag shrapnel it is the shrapnel that digs into my gut my language but I think of my leg blood on my toes my mouth my leg, my leg save my leg my words doctor, doctor I must be able to run, poet, poet I must be able to live, I feel ok my leg, it will be ok I know I believe we will all live we will all be alive trickling away stay I am not going to remember all the punctuation marks in my life jesus, did you see that bomb sail over the wall as if it was a message from the lost angels of Bosnia gliding smoothly in an arc riding prayers that no one hears leaving behind the face that raped my sister (who is dead now) ate the life of my parents (who will not seek revenge now) fucked me without consent to spawn death doctor, save the leg I have to run forget the shrapnel it does not hurt doctor DOCTOR SAVE MY LEG I AM ONLY TWELVE poet will you save all the other Bosnias that are napalming your skin zecko, I can feel the shrapnel... By Kerem Durdag The Naked Matador is a collection of Staring At The Sun, Listen Baby, My Insides Are Red, and Songs for the Fools of Zen |